Being Uncomfortable: The New Year - 2021

Ambrotype - distressed. 

It has been repeated by many that 2020 has been the worst year ever. -As if the numerical designation of “2021” will magically make all things better. Certainly, 2020 had many trials and tribulations that have muted those of the past few decades. However, it is those very (2020) hardships that have allowed many to find their voice, find their meaning and reflect on the fragility of being alive. When viewed in that light, 2020 has been a bridge, albeit shaky, to discovering who we are in the midst of uncertainty. It is when we become comfortable that we stop breathing… stop being alive. If 2020 made you uncomfortable, be thankful that you were able to recognize that. (-Anthony Vizzari 12/31/2020)

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